On this page you’ll find highlights, notes and timings for the call.
Welcome, logistics + participant control
00:54:00: Shared silence
00:03:09: Talking about feeling comfortable with success in life. Often we are as scared of succeeding as of failing.
Quote by Marianne Williamson:
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
00:06:14: Initial check in with each participant asking you to share, name, location and one success in your life – or something that you feel is worthy of celebration.
– Can’t think of what to say – maybe a success is actually to say this right now
– Completing the DANCEmandala facilitation course and rocking the final dance + presentation
– Re-entering the horse world and re-investing in myself
– I’m ready to work with groups again
– Getting three new clients within the first three months of this year. But mostly the fact that I haven’t freaked out about whether or not I’m going to have enough time for myself.
– To actually turn towards myself and set my wellbeing as my main goal
00:15:28: “Today I was hit by strong feeling of sadness and grief. Four people that I’ve been undergoing a transformative DANCEmandala training with the last 8 weeks just left. I kind of fell in love with one of the participants, and I feel heartbroken.”
I notice that you are saying ‘kind of a little bit in love’ and ‘tiny heartbreak’ – it sounds like you are trying to minimize what you are feeling, maybe you need to allow yourself to feel your emotions fully. Maybe you could have a crying session and allow yourself to feel the sadness.
Whenever I’m in a process of extreme transformation I often journal on the question ‘Who am I becoming?’ It takes a while for us to catch up with ourselves.
00:27:40: “For a long time I had a strong distance to my grandmother and mother, because it was more healthy for me. Two days ago my mother called me, and she was drunk. She unloaded all the suffering she is experiencing. I feel guilty for taking my distance. She tells me that I let her alone with all of this. I got so angry. How can I support them without being sucked in again?”
It sounds like what would support you now is to have some boundaries, and to acknowledge who is responsible for what. You don’t have the responsibility for her happiness. She has. Is the statement ‘I’m the only person she can talk to’ really true?
What can you do to take responsibility for your own well being in this situation? We can’t help others unless we take care of ourselves first.
Usually the people in our lives who evoke the strongest feelings they are there to teach us something.
00:50:49: I’m premenstrual and feeling emotional, I’m not sure why. I’m trying not to put words on what I’m going through. A lot of stuff is happening inside of myself that I don’t really understand myself.
“I feel that I’m allowing my inner little girl to be free and do what she wants to do. Even though it’s not the healthiest thing for me – but I feel like she needs to feel free and not having to hide. So I’m fully present with it. At the same time I’m still taking care of myself as an adult. I’m feeling lot of love towards myself for allowing this.”
Exploring the situation: You are building a relationship of trust between your inner child and your adult.
Bringing attention to the statement ‘The only acceptance I need is from myself’
01:01:52: “I’ve put my business on the backburner, but I still feel this calling to express myself, because it nourishes my soul. What I love to do is guiding – I want to allow myself to do what I love and to ask money for it. I’m scared to go out there and state that I’m a healer. The voice ‘who do you think you are’ is coming up.”
Realization of “I’m just really scared of acknowledging the value of this.”
01:11:38: “I’m working on my invitation for the women’s circle that is starting in two days. I’m exited about it. I’m wondering as there is so little time left, if there is a way that I could serve the women I’ve invited before the circle starts?”
Exploring this: what would be of value for them? Maybe I’ll make drawings for the women or a short personal video.