I’ve now been on the road for just over 15 weeks now and I recently noticed how much more comfortable I’ve been feeling about this whole travelling malarkey. I’ve talked a few times on this blog about feelings of loneliness and the doubts I’ve been having about my new nomadic lifestyle, but in the last few weeks I can honestly say that I’ve been feeling very differently.
I’m sure a small part of it has something to do with the fact that I’ve decided to settle for a while in Chiang Mai, but I also know that a large part of it is that after nearly four months of travel around South East Asia, I’ve simply adjusted to this new way of life.
There is a line in a song that I love that says: “only hate the road when you’re missing home” and these days it makes me smile to hear it. I’ve had many highs and lows on this trip and I’ve become so accustomed to the cyclical nature of them that I no longer panic that maybe I’ve done the wrong thing or wonder if life was better back home.
Highs and lows are a natural part of life and I’ve realised that they have only seemed more extreme out here because I’ve been out of my comfort zone and away from everything I know. But I can now see how that is changing, my comfort zone has expanded and everything I know is no longer what I had back in England before I left. Now everything I know is being in South East Asia and all it entails. The heat, the bugs, the language difference, the changing relationships with people I meet, the food, the religion, the rules of the road and so much more.
Change is a complicated affair. First of all we must find the courage to make a big change and then we have to endure the discomfort of actually going through the change. I can now see that I went through both of those steps and then immediately started to evaluate whether or not the change had been the right thing to do but I’ve realised that it’s not a case of getting through the change and then all will be well. We need time to adjust, bed in, get used to all of the new stuff around us and as we do so our comfort zone will slowly expand and before we know it, things that at first felt alien to us soon begin to feel familiar and therefore comforting and we no longer find ourselves pining for the familiar things of old.